A moment in time

I pulled to the side of the road, and parked. I was alone. Lily and Derick are home while I snuck away to the grocery store.

I found myself in front of the rose garden. It's pouring, so I stay in the car. Lisa's boys are here. The twins, their ashes are spread here. Take care of your mom, I say. She loves you, and she needs you to take extra special care of the little one growing inside of her. A car passes quickly. It takes everything that I can to not get out of the car. I don't have an umbrella. I start to cry, I miss my boys.

Dylan and Riley, I miss you. You would be so proud of your little sister but I'm sure you know her better than me already. She's 8lbs now and growing like you wouldn't believe. Please continue to watch over her. She needs you. I need you. I love you, I always will.

I drive away, slowly. Crying. Days like today make the grief come back and stronger than ever. It was hard to get out of bed today.