Happy 4 month Birthday!

My Sweet Baby,

I can't believe it's been 4 months without you! It seems to have gone so fast, and so slow at the same time. I miss you so much, and everyday I love you more and more. I would do anything to have you here with me...anything. But God needed you more. And I accept that. It's just that I needed you too. Thank you for watching over Daddy and I, Uncle Chris in Iraq, and the rest of our family and friends. I know it's a big job, but you are doing it so well.

I got a job today! It's the one that I was hoping for. I'm so excited. I'm glad that we can get our lives back in order. Starting with getting our car back here! Then, eventually, we will find our own home and a special place for you in it where we can hang your pictures and your sweet little footprints wherever my heart desires. It's going to be wonderful Dylan. You will see. It's going to be perfect, our little family. I can feel it in my heart. We are going to be ok, the three of us. And when God blesses us with another miracle, we will be just as happy. Our lives can only improve from here.

Even though we miss you, day after day after day, we know that you are happy and healthy. And that's all that matters to us. You are where you need to be. Someday I will be able to hold you for eternity and I am lucky that you will never get to big to hold so I can hold you forever. You will always be my baby boy!

I love you so much sweetie! Be good to the other kids!
Love you always,
Mommy