Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Little updates

First, thank you all incredibly for your kind words. It really means a lot to me that you are thinking of us so much. I don't know what I would do without you. I love you all so much.

Lily and I started our NST's on Monday. Everything went really well but she was asleep and it took longer than they thought for her to accell like they wanted. The nurse put this vibrating thing on my belly and it woke her up. Actually I think it pissed her off...but whatever. Her heartrate started to go up the way it was supposed to and that's all that mattered. If she's afraid of electric razors as a child we'll know why...

At our 29w appointment with the Peri, she weighed 3lbs 2oz and is growing right according to the charts. She's still breech, and her face is towards my back. My blood pressure is still ok for now, but we're still keeping an eye on things. No protein or anything. We scheduled the amnio for September 4th to check for lung maturity. IF the preliminary results come back good that day, and the final results will be in the following day...she could POTENTIALLY be born on September 5th. So in my head, that's how it works. As far as things will go when we actually get there...who the hell knows! I'm holding on for the 8th or the 9th at the latest. I'm afraid of her being born on the 11th so we're just not going to go there. But we're getting there...slowly but surely.

On Monday my aunt went to the doctor and they told her that her liver is failing. The doctor said that she had 'weeks' to go, but I'm not sure it's going to be weeks. My Bro and SIL went today to see her and she was so out of it that she didn't really know who they were. Derick and I are going tomorrow. She asked Heather if her husband was still killed my brother. And when he kissed her cheek and told her that he loved her, she stared into space as if she didn't comprehend what love was. My uncle says that it's the result of the medicine, but she wasn't nearly like that last week. She's still on the same pain meds and the anxiety meds haven't changed...but I guess they gave her stuff for hiccups. If that can make her not recognize people, then maybe. But I don't think that alone would make her forget who my brother is. Any thoughts?

Anyway, Derick and I are headed to my other aunts house tomorrow for a few nights. She's on vacation and we'd be closer if we are needed. I think we'll be there until Saturday and then head back there again sometime next week. The good news is that we'll have cable and internet access since we don't have it at home. If you've emailed me and I haven't gotten back to you, I appologize. But I read everything.

Thank you again. I couldn't imagine facing all of this on my own.


Anonymous said...

The medicine combined with her body shutting down also coincides with her mind shutting down dear. As horrible as that sounds I think towards the end they do become coherant again for a short while. Also if she has ever had chemo or anything like that in the past it tends to cause the brain to be muddled down the line, like her brain gets foggy or can't keep up. maybe she did know who he was and what he was saying and couldn't react? there are so so many things it could be. Be prepared because she will go more downhill and she may not know who any of you are or you may be 7 yrs old to her for the remainder, its scary sad and frustrating I know I just watched it happen 4 months ago with my Last relative on my fathers side of the family. its devastating. If you need anything at all you have my email. My thoughts and strength are with you and your family.

I am glad that things seem to be progressing the way they should with Lily.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad things are going so well with Lily, and I am terribly sorry about your aunt, it's terrible that her body is shutting down.
so so sorry.

Monica H said...

Like Christyna said, it's a combination of the meds and her body shutting down. My grandmother in law is the same way. She doesn't have a terminal illness, but her body is slowing down and so is her mind. She often doesn't remember who we are and looks at us with glazed over eyes. It's terribly sad and I'm sorry your aunt is going through this. I'm sorry you have to witness it.

I'm glad your appt went well. It's exciting to read you are already at 30 weeks- congrats my friend!

Azaera said...

Hang in there. This part is really tough. She still knows that you and the rest of her family is surrounding her with love though, never doubt that. Even if she isn't very coherent. She knows she is loved.

Anonymous said...

I don't even know you, but found your blog thru ivillage. Your story is an inspiration. My sister has lost 3 babies. One at nine weeks, one at 21 weeks and one at 22wks. The had IVF after trying for years. The doctors told her she needed to seek other options....well She is pregnant naturally now...go figure. They found this amazing doctor that will preform an abdominal cerlage around 11:15am today...its about 10:11am now. I hope my sister has the same amazing success as you have had! CONGRATULATIONS and good luck!
Lori Santos

mrsmuelly said...

Becky, congrats on 30weeks. That's really exciting. Sept. 5th is not so far away.

I'm sorry about your aunt, but glad that you guys can be close. I hope that there is some peace in the house. I'll be thinking of you guys.

CLC said...

Gosh, sept is just around the corner. She will be here any day now! I am so excited for you, I am praying that all goes well.

I am sorry about your Aunt. It's very sad to watch our loved ones grow old.

mrsmuelly said...

Just a note to say that I'm still glad that you two are doing okay. Yep, it's hot...but like you said totally worth it. I, too, would get the TAC over and over again and be on bedrest forever if it meant I could have my boys here with me.

Anonymous said...

just checking in on you! i have been reading, but not posting anything lately. i am so very sorry about your aunt. it always hard to watch someone deteriorate right before you. my prayers are with you and your family.

i am so happy to read that little lily is doing so well!

sending lots of hugs and positive thoughts your way!