Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Two weeks?

My dear Riley,

I can't believe it's been two weeks since I've felt you move, seen your face, and touched your tiny fingers. I miss you more than words can say. My love for you will never waiver. I will never, not even for an instant, forget what you added to my life.

But I have to live without you. With my heart in such pain. I have to move on, day after day after day, knowing that you are happier with your brother. I couldn't imagine going through this pain again, but it helps me to know that you are playing so happily and loving every minute spent with your Mimi. I know that she will take such great care of you. I can only imagine how she is spoiling you!!! I'm almost jealous!

I know that it hurts you both to see Daddy and I so sad. We are trying. We really are.

On a happier note, Aunt Andrea gave me more details of her wedding. It's to be June 30th, and she needs all the help that she can get! I'm happy because it gives me so much to do. Especially at a time that I would be just counting down the days until you were supposed to be here. So it's something for me to do. And maybe, just maybe, you will have a cousin and a brother or a sister born next year. How lucky will you both be?

Well I must get going, but tell Dylan that I said hello and that Mommy loves him too. I tell ya, I must be the luckiest Mommy in the world because my boys will alway be my babies.

I love you so much Riley!!
Love always,