Opperation No Way Out

3 days and counting.

I can't believe it's almost here. Time is flying by. I never thought that I'd make it to 10 weeks already and here I am. I really thought that I wasn't capable of having a living child.

And here I am. Opperation No Way Out is going just as planned. Can you believe something is going as planned *knock on wood*? For once, things are on schedule and going in our favor.

Dr. Davis placed the TAC on my cousin last week as an emergency rescue at 19 weeks. Everything went beautifully, and her little girl is thriving. It brings me such hope. He is also thinking about doing a case study on us. Her sister lost 2 babies and had a 26 weeker, and with my issues...maybe there is a hereditary link after all. Maybe our babies did't die in vain. Maybe there is some greater good to come out of all this.

It's still very difficult for me to think that things will work out this time. Everyone else is very optomistic, in fact my mom has started saving money to buy a crib. But I still can't shake the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop. After what we've been through, maybe I'll always have that feeling. But I'm more optomistic this time. It's a different baby, a different doctor, and we know how to fix the problem.

I just have to keep reminding myself that good things do happen.